Well, it's been an exciting and enlightening week of fascinating revelations all around

Quiero poder sentir plenamente lo que sentía con ella pero todo lo demás me distrae

Came last night with ariadnæ—sort of sin querer (me tocaba pero no quería acabar sin la nenita; I wasn’t really in a position I could try to detenerlo una vez que empezó and tbh she had made Me super-hard two nights running); felt like I was being a softie by indulging her pero al final she moaned so loud and long I felt like it was probably worth it—and am now feeling somewhat indifferent, like she’s older, not as hot aunque da morbo, more of a pain, more likely to fracasar espectacularmente, etc. But then I remember the ansia/anguish I felt when I felt like I was losing her and figure I’ll just never be happy.

Actually suddenly finding myself not caring about much + I’m blaming the lack of sleep

ariadnæ dismissing Me with a shrug, la nenita blatantly defying Me… all while obsessing about how la tortuguita’s getting used.